omg omg omg omg omg oh my godddddddddddddddd. i am fucking thankful i have da determination of a rock. this is so fucking tough. and it's not even about musicality. that's da fucking easiest. i will fucking make it through all da fucking way. yes i can and will. okay i need to fucking hit myself. and get a fucking grip. i need to do this. for da sake of my greater dream. just keep thinking about that...yea it'll be worth it. it will.