Thursday, June 24, 2010

AWEESOMEEEEEEE


omg omg OMG OMGGGGG!!!!! i just had da most awesomemest fantabulous magical 24 hours of my life!!!!!!!!! my persistent insomnia was magically cured and i managed to sleep 16 hours! that's not da awesome thing of course lol prior to getting home and sleeping i went for wang yuja's piano recital...hahaha her performance..WAO! beyond words! i only wished i didnt have da flu so i could have heard her music in better clarity. clogged ears clogged nose..eww much. lolol da sounds of her piano...you could almost imagine golden bubbles of music bursting in hall...just like in nodame..serious! hahahaha she takes playing da piano to a whole new world. and i felt like i was in another world too...could imagine da scenes playing out in my head...especially during her sergei prokofiev's piece. WAOWAOWAO. its an eccentric piece..with loads of jarring notes. supposed to be a composition about da turbulence of da ongoing war at that time...but when she played it..da imagery that went on in my head was that she was playing in some abandoned mansion in a haunted forest...thunderstorms raging...creatures lurking at every corner..waiting to pounce. very very very excellently portrayed. her pianissimos and fortissimos extremely dynamic..leaves you full of anticipation. musically perfect..to me at least. technically amazing too.only her chopin was a bit off. it was da first piece she played...kinda messy..but all was well once she started da 2nd movement. all in all...ahhhhh melts. she makes music come alive lolol


hee hee i got her autograph!

music truly is food for da soul. her recital was just da beginning of my magical night. lolol..i had da best dream of my whole entire life last night. okay probably one of da best anyways. da world i was in..was so ethereal..so utterly beautiful. most of my dreams would have some sort of semblance to reality. be it...buildings...or da existence of humans. this one had absolutely nothing! im not even sure what species i was! hahaha anyway...it was a world full of magic..mythical creatures..stunningly flabbergasting geography. we..as in da other creatures and i..were in our classroom..we were elementary school creatures i think lol and our classroom was da belly of a huge dragon. HAHA! amazing or what! it had windows on da side of its belly and it acted as our school bus too! lol my seat was right at da back next to da left window by da way haha. one day we went on a class trip..and it was then that i could clearly see da grandeur of da world i was in. floating islands everywhere...below us a sea of clouds..dragons of all sorts of colours and species flying everywhere. our classroom dragon was a large metallic green one. da western species with wings..not da chinese ones. our dragon took flight...not sure where we were headed though. while in de air...da teach still went on and on about something. didnt bother listening..lolol just kept looking out of da window..enjoying da magnificent view...our dragon would sometimes fly really low and we would get to touch da waters and clouds..at one point we flew across an ocean...yea an ocean on a bed of clouds...there were crystal blue glaciers at coasts of de oceans and da nicest part of it was da multitude of crystal shards that emerged from random parts of de ocean...they popped up in clusters of crystal shards kinda like da picture below...only they were ice blue...and sharper...


suddenly there was turbulence...LOL and da wind pressure became increasingly harsh and it was like whiplash. da windows began to crack under da pressure...it went eerily quiet for a moment..just like da silence before a storm..and da next thing we know da windows were all shattered. a lot of us sustained injuries from that...some maybe more severe than others...my teacher then told us to start chanting and praying to some god? i think it was a protective charm that required da sacrifice of blood..we had to carve da symbols in our palms...chant something and then stab da center of it...i was like whattt? hahaha i ended up not doing it. i suspected that it wasnt purely turbulence that caused our situation anyway. da geography of da sky started to change..we entered foreign territory i think. instead of floating islands (made of earth that is)...da floating islands here were made of clouds...and there was proof of life and nature on da clouds...little houses and sparse vegetation and some trees growing...kinda strange compared to da flourished islands where we were from....da strangest thing was that they were all floating above a larger island of cloud that had rocky mountains...lakes and waterfalls.....da entire atmosphere was gloomy cos of da numerous amount of rocky structures...it was beautiful nonetheless. just when we thought da worst was over...our dragon started to plummet. i think it was shot down..not but some missile or gun but by an attack spell. some protective charm. lol. we landed in a lake instead of hitting da rocky structures thankfully. but our luck was short-lived. while some of us manage to swim to da surface..some were still stuck in our dragon. and before we knew it our dragon was frozen and we were surrounded a magical army of weird creatures. they started to freeze da area that we were in..a few of us were frantically swimming away..but it was hard. we were scared..surrounded by weird creatures in armor and rocky mountains...our dragon frozen..no means of escape seemed possible. just as i thought we were all doomed..time seemed to stop and a bright warm orange light embraced me. there was a symbol amidst that light...i think it signified fire..there was some voice telling me to grab it...and i knew that this was it. this was our means to escape. i reached my hand towards it and i was engulfed with flames of power. hahahaha i then unleashed some a powerful fire spell and managed to melt da ice. but it wasnt enough. apparently that spell took a lot outta me too. i used da remaining of my strength to swim away...but i began to lose consciousness...

man my dream is long..im not done yet..lolol...this dream was so darn vivid la....continuing....when i regained consciousness...i realised that it hadnt be long since i passed out...and some weird horse/dwarf like creature was carrying me...and another classmate...it was da girl who sat next to me...oh i forgot to mention that i am a boy in this dream...lololol...male..creature something...still looked human..but like a miniature animated one..da horse/dwarf like creature carried us to a hidden cave in one of da rocky structures...there we met a creature who was of da same species as i....when he was taking care of my wounds...he saw da symbol on my right hand that i usually hide with a glove...he was surprised but he didnt say anything and i was still too out of it to be coherent....fire elemental power wasnt my original power....my power lain in ice...and it was one of da highest leveled ones....i hid it because i didnt want people to make a deal outta it since i was just a mere kid....in our village..when we reached a certain age..we would conduct ceremonies to determine what kind of power we had and make pacts with creatures...da same bright light thing would happen...somehow a creature's voice would speak to us...but for kids our age never a powerful one.....when i regained consciousness again..my classmate was already awake...and that same specie guy was discussing a counterattack? apparently their kingdom is ruled by an extremely powerful king...and he kidnaps magical beings for his own uses....now they are rapid searching for da kids that escaped...and are closing in on our hideout..so da plan was to use da fire power that i demostrated before to lure them elsewhere...before running away...we went out to one of da rock structures...and i began to attack it with fire shots....was kinda weak since fire wasnt really my element...as we were about to run away...we were suddenly overwhelmed with magic attacks...we had no clue that da army were this close...we were about to be hit by flaming hot meteor rocks when edison da asshole called me...omg............i woke up. im gonna kill youuuuuuuuuuuuu! anyway da way magic works in this world is kinda up to one's own imagination. as long as it's your element. and you have a pact with a creature of that element. how you want to use it is up to you. no need for wands or chants. it can be something physical or telekinetic. but da amount of magic power you have varies with one's own potential and your creature's potential...

wahh..i still feel really numb..like i have yet to awaken. i kinda had another dream before this one..but that was kinda sad..it was about me being lost in parallel worlds...unable to return to my nakama. i was transported to 10 years ahead of my original time and there was some kind of war going on that my nakama were fighting. however da me that was fighting with them was a me from another world. not da useless me. they made me escape to my original time but it screwed up and i got sent to another parallel world...my friends were da same friends yet different. they had no recollections of da time we spent together. i figured that this was how my other self was with my real nakama fighting da future war instead of me..blah blah. so sad. there was no ending to this dream too. i was still lost in worlds.

im still lost in worlds right now. hahahahaha. ahhhh.....

Saturday, June 19, 2010

fly me to da moon...

im tired and sick so why cant i sleep? been sleepless for a few nights already. suckss. havent had a decent dream in a while either. been so distorted lately. ughh. wang yuja's concert is approaching though...cant wait! haha..there's a strange feeling of dread in me though. like my mind's preempting itself for da blow that would chill me right to da bones. i know when i hear her performance i will be totally degraded. i still wanna listen to her play though. masochist much? hahahaha you know people seem to be getting dumber by da era. really ya know like they act as if they know every single fucking thing? all high and mighty and arrogant...and then they say stupid things like how people superstar and all and cannot compare. i seriously dont get it. attitude and words contradict totally. so why are you a nobody acting all high and mighty then? cos you are comparing yourself to da people around you right? and through your own judgement you deem yourself better than others. socially retarded. seriously...everyone has da innate ability to become someone. it's just a lot of people dont pull through cos they dont want it hard enough. da people you see out there..wanted it and pulled through..yea a lot of it depends on luck opportunity too. but im just saying...just pisses me of when people say cannot compare and all...cos all these people started from nobodies too. ughh really tired...sometimes i think...maybe it would be better if i broke once and for all...maybe i'd be able to give up then...hahaha yeap yeap..totally masochistic...im an m...a madao...hahahahahahahaha if i could restart my life....hahaha i should draw up my lifeline...lol

0 years....birth....maybe get a tailed beast sealed in me...lol...
1 years.....first word....piano.....or maybe unko....hahaha...
2 years......fly first then walk....
3 years......get lost in forest.....raised by tiger.....
4 years....learned to roar.....
5 years.....wandered into abandoned house.....found a piano....
6 years....tiger starts to teach me english...and da art of hunting....
7 years.....got enrolled in elementary school at da edge of forest....
8 years.....made friends with a forest sprite.....
9 years.....got bullied by my classmates cos i was different.....
10 years.....fox demon stole my undies....
11 years....school talent show.....i spoke english.....
12 years.....triumphed over fox demon.....beat him at forest math....
13 years.....joined da sprites ensemble.....
14 years.....

kinda got lost in my own day dream......funny how i stopped at 13......wouldnt mind life being a standstill if it was like that....haha sorry...maybe i'll continue my lifeline later.....thinking about it makes me sad....

Friday, June 18, 2010

lord of da flies




im sickkkk..got a sore throat...wahh..unbelievable. why do i get sick so easily even though i always eat soupy foods...oh wellss...i've been reading this manga called BEELZEBUB hahaha it's awesome! it's full of action and comedy and it has good looking boy + girl charas too. it reminds me of gintama. sans parodies. hahaha

http://www.manga-news.com/public/images/vols/beelzebub-jp-1.jpg

it's about this delinquent who picks up a baby who happens to be da son of da demon king..aka..future demon king. lol he's forced to become da parent since baby bel (baby's name) chose him and refused to detach himself. and he has to nurture baby bel to be a strong demon king so he can destroy humanity later lolol this should be made into an animeeeee!!!!!!!! baby bel's real funny and cute. and always naked lolol okayyy im off to find more manga too read. there really shoud be more manga like these out there...sick of all those shoujo ones..

Monday, June 7, 2010

mmmkay


okay i guess da previous post was kinda melodramatic. been practicing davichi songs...lol really really hard to sing. haeri hits notes super easily. minkyung's parts are way easier to sing...okayy fightingggg lolol

Thursday, June 3, 2010

hopeless

im just never gonna be good enough. it's so damned frustrating. my voice is not good enough..im not pretty enough. i cant play any instrument well enough. im not thin enough. i cant fucking dance. my skin is not flawless enough. in fact it's even worse than normal since i have eczema. im not young enough. all in all just not talented enough. you know what's da only thing that i have too much of? i just want it way more than enough. im totally obsessed. maybe if i didnt want it this badly..i'd just be a little happier...i'd want to live a little longer.