dear daddy...

Dear Dad...

please take care of my precious baby...

LoL...

また来週！

もうすぐ出かけるわよ！荷物も準備しました！タイとマレーシアー行くつもりなんだ。海スポーツやりたい～～～

ところで、カルの一歳誕生日だよ！

おめでとうございます！



これは、犬の奢りだけどカルちゃん好きかもとおもって、買ってみた！ペットの奢りの癖に、高過ぎ！



カル一番好きな飴！英語でliqouriceって。めちゃ可愛い！

じゃにゃ！また来週ね！

GRRRRRR!

i just bought a big bag of milk bones for glitz...to help her miss me less when i go to msia..hahaha...everytime she gets a bone..she's super possessive! from sucha a cute dog she becomes some fierce beast...hahah her golden stripe will also stand like some hyena..LOL..but i still find her cute..LOL



glitz begging for her bone...so obedient..at first..LOL..



hahah so selfish right!



still can bare her teeth and growl at me...tsk!! so naughty!



haha i found another vid of glitz playing tug of war...that's my mum's voice in da background...LOL...



karu vs glitz who will win? when karu was younger...heh..so cute!

karu is really like a dog...he even wags his tail...plays catch..begs for food..not as much as glitz though..



it's gonna be karu's first birthday soon...i wonder what shio's gonna be doing for him...hahaha...today we had a pet filled day..LOL...brought glitz to cut her nails....karu to da vet to clean his ears...cut karu's nails and cleaned them...cleaned their teeth...gotta bathe them tomorrow also...shio always makes me bathe karu cos she doesnt wanna be da bad guy...hahaha asss...

man...i should pack my stuff...i haven't started yet! ja nya!

nekotan!

i went to school to collect da course materials today..was supposed to go for orientation too but was kinda pointless since i've already attended 3 orientations there..in da end i went to town with shio..LOL..i'll probably be da youngest in my class..da admin person told me that most of my classmates are working adults..hmm..so considering that..i decided to get a new wallet...



my current wallet...nekochan..who has accompanied me for ummm...a while? hahaha..gomen ne neko chan..dont worry tho...you'll still be accompanying me as a pencil case...hahaha...a room full of working adults and it just struck me as weird and awkward to have nekochan as a wallet...hahaha...so i was intending to buy something more..um...mature...ahem..LOL



and this was what i ended up with...LOL i was really planning to buy something more mature! saw one from guess that was nice but they didnt have da longer version of it at that outlet...soooooo....on da way to another outlet...i saw THIS! i think it's more me..and way nicer than da guess wallet. LOL



see! it even has a pink fish zip..hahaha



da inside..heh



shio bought this for me..so cute right..it's some apron like thingy..but i think i will wear it as pajamas..hahaha..just like karu..cat playing piano..

i saw a piano bag..and many other cat bags...and i managed to resist da temptation! i kinda have many um...animal bags and weird bags already...so i think i should start to buy normal ones..hahahaha..karu decided to pee on my cat bag by da way..that ass...arent cats supposed to be toilet trained!!?

anyway..school starts on tues...dear brain...please wake up! WAKE UPYO!

felion

yeahhh im finally satisfied with my new header...i wanna change da background colour but since im using a fix template i cant...hmm i found a lot of other templates but if i change it my page elements will not be retained...hmm..mm...mmmmm.....anyway..isnt da new clock cute? hahahaha there were quite a number..panda suit bear..leopard suit bear...bunny suit...chose this because my nickname in school used to be felion..LOL...i forgot why..i think it was cos of my hair...my all time fav. disney movie is lion king too..hahaha..loved it to bits man...watched it like a hundred times..everything i wore had lion king..ahem..pri school by da way...haha..acted in lion king play too..LOL...so cool i was singing simba's part i think...hahaha..

oh yeahhh

here are da next two uncut vids by da way!

what if i died and became a zombie?

i love doing otherworldly stuff! haha..i wonder if im really human sometimes...heh..my bio clock has been totally screwed up..i've been waking up around this time (it's 11.20 now..LOL) and sleeping in da morning..sometimes i wish i can sleep my life away...just live my dreams..literally speaking..lol...i dont care if they're nightmares...they are still more exciting than reality..though there are some dreams that i rather not have...

i dreamt of glitz dying again...haha..man..i cant remember much of da dream..all i know was that she was implanted with this alien lifeform...and this alien lifeform is damn cute...but it's like da devil incarnate or something..and i dont know how but it had a knife...and it sliced her up from da inside...starting from her eyeball...ughh....my dreams of glitz dying are always so full of gore...i read somewhere that dreams are supposed to be in black and white...but i dream in colour eh...haha...very dull though...like da zombie pictures below....and da most prominent colour is always da blood....

i used to write my dreams down....some because it's like some big adventure...some cos it's plain scary and i just needed to get it off my chest...some cos i felt a sense of belonging in them...i just dont wanna forget them...it's like another part of life that i have lived..despite being in dream realm...hahaha...have you ever dreamt so vividly that when you wake up...da effects of da dream still affects you? im not talking about some lovey dovey dream...when you wake up you feel happy kind of shit...your pounding heart..da way it clenches in fear...da way da tears continue to stream from your eyes...da invisible blood on your hands...da cold sweat...da cold clammy hand of your friend who just died....da lingering lifeless touch...that keeps haunting you...da helplessness...scary isnt it....but it creates such an adrenaline rush....

zombie fiera..

not zombiefied enough...should go rent costumes and get proper makeup..hahah when i have more money yeahhh....

kero kero kaeru

hie all...im thinking of reconstructing da blog again...heh...maybe not too much on da designs and stuff but rather da way that i blog? yeahh...initially i started this blog to 'advertise' my web series (AOF)...and like photos and stuff...but i think by doing it this way im putting way too much thought into what i blog about...so i wanna make it more personal....

i feel that it would be tons better than blogging like some hyperactive 5 year old..and next a dying old lady...hahahaha...for those who know me i guess i am kinda like that...downright weird and random..haha..im like two extremes...everything i do and like can be totally opposite...like rock and classical...believing and yet not believing...carefree yet burdened..fel and fiera...maybe there wont be much changes after all...haha...but no more being hypocritical and superficial from now on...i dont want my blog to be so commercialized just because i wanna promote my aof or whatever....haha yep yep..new year dane....

when's da next AOF? hahaha hmm mmm mmm.....shio and i are going overseas during chinese new year...so it's gonna be after that i guess?? hahaha...damn..we'll be missing soy....

so many things i have to do yeahh...i have to find a new job....my school's starting soon...hahaha i need to get my brain back in action...it's been a long time since i used it..lol...used to be able to write relatively well..and now i think im just full of shit...hahaha...and im majoring in literature...im sooooooooo dead....hahaha..but still kinda excited....it's been a long time since i had inspiration to compose anything...da song i wrote for uncle ek being da first after 2 years....not good enough though...it's kinda like a ballad...but i got stuck halfway and i dont know how to continue it.....oh well..some people take years to complete a song...heh i wanna be proficient enough in jap to write poetry and stuff....my sensei said it would take at least 10 years...LOL...

honestly i dont really wanna find another job..i wanna concentrate on my music and complete my jap and start french...but it's so ex...bahhhh....okayyy..that's all for now...ja nyaa...lol..

ichiban~~~

HAPPY NEW YEARR!

hieeee~ da very first post of 2009! i guess there are tons to look forward to..but to some of us..ahem..me..LOL..and yeah a few others..i just means another year has passed...with no changes...well i wouldnt say no changes..but life still remains pretty stagnant....let's reminisce shall we...hahaha..

highlights of 2008

joining da F1 competition...decided to come out of my hermit hole...and become sociable again in hopes of getting more opportunities to attain my dream...made new friends..but in return...became more jaded...didnt want to return to da kind of social lifestyle i had in da past...so many 'friends'...in de end..there were no opportunities...even for da winner...da whole comp was just a faux to gain attention for da event...one minute of fame i would say....

was introduced to da cosplay scene...haha most interesting thing of da year...makes me look forward to every event that comes....

started Adventures of FIERA....kinda fun...but tiring to edit videos...haha...something that i can call my own...

karu came into our lives....cutest thing...

ignored edison...and started talking to him again....haha...

i got to know ruki...hahaha...

singing and piano playing improved.....but still not good enough...

...uncle ek passed away...

became more jaded...

becoming despondent...haha...

last disappointment of da year....participated in avex world audition and did not make it.....not even through da first round.....

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resolutions for 2009

by march latest...master hibari's theme song....

i must make it by this year....

learn another language..probably french...

become thinner...(shuddup all of you)...

become closer to da me i know i can be....

get out of this place...with glitz..shio and karu....

improve at da piano...and singing...

meet some mythical and magical creatures...haha..

i hope this list will change next year....