Land of the Rising Dead

wao. it has been unbelievably long since i last blogged. i supposed it took me 5 months to get back on my feet again. and i am determined to stay afloat this time. thank you for all the encouraging comments..im assuming that some of you got directed here because of my youtube account? heehee. anyway i have sooooo many things i wanna say. but i'll start with da ABU Radio Song Competition!

what da hell is ABU? hahahaha truth be told..i find this name extremely silly. it actually stands for Asia Broadcasting Union though. i briefly heard about this competition ONE WEEK before the deadline. and i was like crap! i wanted to start afresh so i didnt use any of my old songs and i created one from scratch. i didnt have time to perfect da arrangement or get da recording professionally done either. everything was done at home..with no mic and a lousy midi keyboard with no pedal :( can you imagine how hard it is to sustain da notes??? god. i had to add so much reverb. all those 4 miserable hours of sleep finally paid off and i have my first lousy quality recording hahaha.

turns out. it's a competition that is based on 'likes' with no criteria whatsoever. i guess it's just a publicity stunt for their event. oh wells..there goes my chance of 2000bucks and performing in Korea. i would still really appreciate it if you guys can listen to it and give me constructive criticism though.

i am trying to create a completely new genre of music. havent thought of what to call it yet haha. dark fantasy pop?? so please keep an open mind (or ear lol) okay?

how was it? hahaha if you liked it pleasee CLICK HERE and help me like it okay? ^^


regardless of how this competition goes..i kinda have my own plans anyway. i wont be set back by something as minor as this. FAITOOOO OH! ^^


ps: i will blog about korea next! heehee

thunderstorm

i wonder if anyone still bothers reading this dead blog..i did say that i would try to blog more often but this is not gonna be an entertaining post i suppose. more like a zombified rant. i feel like im in some sort of eerie unsettling calm before the storm. i feel so unmotivated. i just keep distracting myself with stupid iphone games but when it's late at night and da games dont suffice da thoughts just keep surfacing. despite all da plans i made..was planning to record my ep..about 3 songs i guess..gonna do an album photoshoot..gonna hire someone to do my album art. i converted my account into a page to promote myself. i even did all da music arrangements for my songs! had all these plans laid out but you know what's missing? my voice..i damaged my vocals chords..probably because of da halloween event and made it worse because of AFA. i keep hoping it will get better in time..but i tried singing after resting for more than a month. and i can sing easy songs..but high songs..gone...my reinforced falsetto..gone. da tone i worked so hard to achieve..gone. and i seriously dont know if my voice will ever go back to normal. it's a lot raspier than it was before. and my falsetto's supposed to be da best part of my voice. how nice can a raspy falsetto be. so what of my dreams now? i am made for this. i feel such a strong calling towards this and i am so passionate about it. but if i cant sing what am i supposed to do then. what the fuck in da world am i supposed to do then. what is da reason for my existence. my tenacity is like a freaking cockroach. disgusting and psychotic. perhaps this is god's way of telling me that this is not it? after being kicked down beyond my limit? or is this some sort of tragic comedy and life's just screwing with me? this happened once before. in jc. then i was still into music..just not piano and vocals..but trumpet. i practiced till my lips bled..my gums cut by da pressure. every freaking day. my lips literally looked like sausages. then one day i couldnt breathe properly and when i went to check it out..i found out that it was because i had torn my lung lining. it was then that i really had to give it up. is there something wrong with me? i mean must something really terrible happen to me before i get it? so once again i am here wondering...what da fuck am i supposed to do then. 


i feel like im surrounded by people who dont even think deeply. feels like all they think about are games homework..girls guys..makeup..kpop. do people nowadays just have no depth? or have they been blinded by they way society thinks? or is everyone using all these as a distraction cos they dont wanna ponder so much about such stuff? does anyone ever wonder why..what's da reason for existing? is there a purpose for living beyond just getting good grades good job good spouse good family? told you it was gonna be a zombified rant. 


just take me beyond reality where da spirits fly and never die.

wao :3

it's really been sucha a long time haha..my blog's been collecting spideywebs. anyway im going try blogging more often. ohisashiburi minna :x

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頭が痛い

i feel so left behind. everyone's moving forward towards their dreams and im still stuck here. im tired of  waiting for this neverending drought to end.

Crash and Burn

I wanna write bone chilling..drug intoxicating..music that touches you down to the deepest corner of your soul. never seems to be enough..sick of feeling inadequate. da irony of being happy..it makes me soo complacent. and i dont think i should allow myself this tiny bit of pleasure before achieving what i want so badly. i guess i just kinda let da desperation slip. i start to question da importance of it and other possibilities. but who am i kidding. it has never changed. what i want has never changed. 

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演技初めて！

dismissing da retarded videos on my youtube...lols..i acted for da first time! hahahaa got a couple of roles this month but i dont think it'll be on tv. only for corporate viewing i think? lols so funny..da first time i did it da director kept telling me not to float around HAHA! oh man my pontianak characteristics are being portrayed through my acting hahahaha i dont have any behind da scene shots though..not much of a picture taker. i should seriously start taking more pictures...especially since i have a camera now lols.

anyway im gonna be at da men's fashion week event tomorrow. gonna be supporting my bestie. kinda excited and feeling nervous for him i hope he does well.  i must remember to take pictures tomorrow. hahahaha