unicorns!

woot! three blog posts in a row im on a roll lolols i had an awesome dream last night!! ughhh but i can barely remember it! it's been weeks since my last mystical magical dream...how can i forgetttttt ｶﾞ━━(ﾟДﾟ|||)━━ﾝ

all i remembered was i discovered da existence of magical creatures! i was so happy i cried a river of tears LOL i saw two unicorns on top of a hill fighting but they were being rode on by elves? or some human like creatures so i presume da fight was actually because of these 'elves' ahhh...arent unicorns supposed to be docile and peace loving? lols i somehow entered their magical world and and and i cant remember already. GUHHHHHHHHH 

seriously..are you a faerie or demon or unicorn or elf or esper or alien or sprite or vampire or werewolf or others?

hahaha i will discover your existence one day! 

AWEESOMEEEEEEE

omg omg OMG OMGGGGG!!!!! i just had da most awesomemest fantabulous magical 24 hours of my life!!!!!!!!! my persistent insomnia was magically cured and i managed to sleep 16 hours! that's not da awesome thing of course lol prior to getting home and sleeping i went for wang yuja's piano recital...hahaha her performance..WAO! beyond words! i only wished i didnt have da flu so i could have heard her music in better clarity. clogged ears clogged nose..eww much. lolol da sounds of her piano...you could almost imagine golden bubbles of music bursting in hall...just like in nodame..serious! hahahaha she takes playing da piano to a whole new world. and i felt like i was in another world too...could imagine da scenes playing out in my head...especially during her sergei prokofiev's piece. WAOWAOWAO. its an eccentric piece..with loads of jarring notes. supposed to be a composition about da turbulence of da ongoing war at that time...but when she played it..da imagery that went on in my head was that she was playing in some abandoned mansion in a haunted forest...thunderstorms raging...creatures lurking at every corner..waiting to pounce. very very very excellently portrayed. her pianissimos and fortissimos extremely dynamic..leaves you full of anticipation. musically perfect..to me at least. technically amazing too.only her chopin was a bit off. it was da first piece she played...kinda messy..but all was well once she started da 2nd movement. all in all...ahhhhh melts. she makes music come alive lolol

hee hee i got her autograph!

music truly is food for da soul. her recital was just da beginning of my magical night. lolol..i had da best dream of my whole entire life last night. okay probably one of da best anyways. da world i was in..was so ethereal..so utterly beautiful. most of my dreams would have some sort of semblance to reality. be it...buildings...or da existence of humans. this one had absolutely nothing! im not even sure what species i was! hahaha anyway...it was a world full of magic..mythical creatures..stunningly flabbergasting geography. we..as in da other creatures and i..were in our classroom..we were elementary school creatures i think lol and our classroom was da belly of a huge dragon. HAHA! amazing or what! it had windows on da side of its belly and it acted as our school bus too! lol my seat was right at da back next to da left window by da way haha. one day we went on a class trip..and it was then that i could clearly see da grandeur of da world i was in. floating islands everywhere...below us a sea of clouds..dragons of all sorts of colours and species flying everywhere. our classroom dragon was a large metallic green one. da western species with wings..not da chinese ones. our dragon took flight...not sure where we were headed though. while in de air...da teach still went on and on about something. didnt bother listening..lolol just kept looking out of da window..enjoying da magnificent view...our dragon would sometimes fly really low and we would get to touch da waters and clouds..at one point we flew across an ocean...yea an ocean on a bed of clouds...there were crystal blue glaciers at coasts of de oceans and da nicest part of it was da multitude of crystal shards that emerged from random parts of de ocean...they popped up in clusters of crystal shards kinda like da picture below...only they were ice blue...and sharper...

suddenly there was turbulence...LOL and da wind pressure became increasingly harsh and it was like whiplash. da windows began to crack under da pressure...it went eerily quiet for a moment..just like da silence before a storm..and da next thing we know da windows were all shattered. a lot of us sustained injuries from that...some maybe more severe than others...my teacher then told us to start chanting and praying to some god? i think it was a protective charm that required da sacrifice of blood..we had to carve da symbols in our palms...chant something and then stab da center of it...i was like whattt? hahaha i ended up not doing it. i suspected that it wasnt purely turbulence that caused our situation anyway. da geography of da sky started to change..we entered foreign territory i think. instead of floating islands (made of earth that is)...da floating islands here were made of clouds...and there was proof of life and nature on da clouds...little houses and sparse vegetation and some trees growing...kinda strange compared to da flourished islands where we were from....da strangest thing was that they were all floating above a larger island of cloud that had rocky mountains...lakes and waterfalls.....da entire atmosphere was gloomy cos of da numerous amount of rocky structures...it was beautiful nonetheless. just when we thought da worst was over...our dragon started to plummet. i think it was shot down..not but some missile or gun but by an attack spell. some protective charm. lol. we landed in a lake instead of hitting da rocky structures thankfully. but our luck was short-lived. while some of us manage to swim to da surface..some were still stuck in our dragon. and before we knew it our dragon was frozen and we were surrounded a magical army of weird creatures. they started to freeze da area that we were in..a few of us were frantically swimming away..but it was hard. we were scared..surrounded by weird creatures in armor and rocky mountains...our dragon frozen..no means of escape seemed possible. just as i thought we were all doomed..time seemed to stop and a bright warm orange light embraced me. there was a symbol amidst that light...i think it signified fire..there was some voice telling me to grab it...and i knew that this was it. this was our means to escape. i reached my hand towards it and i was engulfed with flames of power. hahahaha i then unleashed some a powerful fire spell and managed to melt da ice. but it wasnt enough. apparently that spell took a lot outta me too. i used da remaining of my strength to swim away...but i began to lose consciousness...

man my dream is long..im not done yet..lolol...this dream was so darn vivid la....continuing....when i regained consciousness...i realised that it hadnt be long since i passed out...and some weird horse/dwarf like creature was carrying me...and another classmate...it was da girl who sat next to me...oh i forgot to mention that i am a boy in this dream...lololol...male..creature something...still looked human..but like a miniature animated one..da horse/dwarf like creature carried us to a hidden cave in one of da rocky structures...there we met a creature who was of da same species as i....when he was taking care of my wounds...he saw da symbol on my right hand that i usually hide with a glove...he was surprised but he didnt say anything and i was still too out of it to be coherent....fire elemental power wasnt my original power....my power lain in ice...and it was one of da highest leveled ones....i hid it because i didnt want people to make a deal outta it since i was just a mere kid....in our village..when we reached a certain age..we would conduct ceremonies to determine what kind of power we had and make pacts with creatures...da same bright light thing would happen...somehow a creature's voice would speak to us...but for kids our age never a powerful one.....when i regained consciousness again..my classmate was already awake...and that same specie guy was discussing a counterattack? apparently their kingdom is ruled by an extremely powerful king...and he kidnaps magical beings for his own uses....now they are rapid searching for da kids that escaped...and are closing in on our hideout..so da plan was to use da fire power that i demostrated before to lure them elsewhere...before running away...we went out to one of da rock structures...and i began to attack it with fire shots....was kinda weak since fire wasnt really my element...as we were about to run away...we were suddenly overwhelmed with magic attacks...we had no clue that da army were this close...we were about to be hit by flaming hot meteor rocks when edison da asshole called me...omg............i woke up. im gonna kill youuuuuuuuuuuuu! anyway da way magic works in this world is kinda up to one's own imagination. as long as it's your element. and you have a pact with a creature of that element. how you want to use it is up to you. no need for wands or chants. it can be something physical or telekinetic. but da amount of magic power you have varies with one's own potential and your creature's potential...

wahh..i still feel really numb..like i have yet to awaken. i kinda had another dream before this one..but that was kinda sad..it was about me being lost in parallel worlds...unable to return to my nakama. i was transported to 10 years ahead of my original time and there was some kind of war going on that my nakama were fighting. however da me that was fighting with them was a me from another world. not da useless me. they made me escape to my original time but it screwed up and i got sent to another parallel world...my friends were da same friends yet different. they had no recollections of da time we spent together. i figured that this was how my other self was with my real nakama fighting da future war instead of me..blah blah. so sad. there was no ending to this dream too. i was still lost in worlds.

im still lost in worlds right now. hahahahaha. ahhhh.....

gutentag

ohayooooo! my bioclock seems to be working today heh! i slept around 12 plus last night...woke up to eat caramelized banana cake (from nectarie it's damn good!) and super late dinner at 230 lolol watched anime till 430 and went to sleep again. and i woke up about 10 plus? still feel kinda sleepy but gonna go out to buy some stuff...im super hungry!!!!!!!! lol

haha i've been having funny dreams recently. probably cos of da lack of sleep so da plot ended up being really warped. lolol i was lost in a pyramid...and no matter how i couldnt seem to find my way out...so i took my out my trusty sword..sliced it open and flew away. LOL yea my sword can cut through stone and i can fly lol yesterday's one was even funnier..i was in this alternate realm where there were different species of humans/animals..there were humanoid leopards...and other humanoid animals basically...and there was war going on. it was kinda like a desert jungle...with trees and ruins. i think i was human though. there were other humans around and we got along with da humanoid animals perfectly...but i was siding one of da species. so i was brought to their secret base. sounds so tech savvy but it's actually not. lol. we were being chased by da enemy species and had to quickly escape to da base. and to enter it we had to use a key to open da portal connecting another realm. and da key was a brocolli. it's literally a key. as in slot da brocolli into a key hole LOLOL i have no idea why. their realm was way pretty. lush forests and jungles everywhere. yet there were buildings around too. yeaaa...and i woke up to eat caramelized banana cake so there's no continuation. lolol

hahaha da next dream was even more nonsensical. da setting was a beautiful gothic mansion...it was a haunted house but it was creepily ethereal...with overgrown gardens and vines..cracked fountains and unused wells....you could almost imagine it's former grandeur. sounds awesome so far right lolol it was actually infested with zombies.....when i entered da mansion...it was as if no one was there..they were all in hiding. but they knew i was there. one by one they started to appear...da birds cats and all were zombies too...they dragged their feet moaned and groaned and started to chase after me...albeit really slowly. and they were groaning...'dont run awayyyyyyyyy doooonnnnttt runnn awayyyyyyy...we wanna playyyyyyy...' of course i ran like a mad woman LOL they eventually cornered me and i was scared shitless. but when they reached me they didnt do anything. they just looked and stared at each other. and once again they groaned..'whyyyy didddd youu runn awayyyyyyyy...????' i was so shocked at da stupid question and i just shouted back of course who wouldnt run away with a bunch of zombies chasing them! and then they looked really sad...so i kinda realized that they really werent gonna harm me...they were all just really lonely. after all they lived forever and hardly had any visitors...lolol so i decided to literally straighten their backs and hold zombie reformatory classes. LOL. military style somemore. haha! i can still remember what i said...'if you want to have friends first of all you have to stop looking so scary! straighten your backs! stop hunching and dragging your feet! stop groaning and moaning too! speak properly and for goodness sake put on some make up!' LOLOLOL in de end...my best student became barbie LOL it was then that i realized that i preferred them as zombies...not something so superficial...it wasnt that they looked so horrid too...they were just deathly pale...and it was da typical stereotype of zombies that made people scared of them...lol de end. hahaha i woke up after that. even in my dumb dream there are lessons to be learned hahaha okayyy i wanna go eat already! ja nee~

good morning rotten world...lol

aww...this feels really good...havent felt this rested in a long while...lol i slept 14 hrs man..i bet i still can go on but im scared i wont be able to wake up in time for jamming tomorrow..plus i wanna do my song research by today so i can play tomorrow lolol been having end of da world dreams again..dreamt that da world was gonna be destroyed by tsunami again...whilst some were desperately trying to reach da higher places...some didnt bother...still continued playing games lol da whole time i was trying to save glitz though...she's like 27kg eh. so darn heavy..had to carry her and all in case we'd get separated. can only vaguely remember what happened da past few nights...last night i dreamt that i was on da run from this organization that was after my life. anne too. but we had to sneak home to get glitz and some other stuff. i dreamt that we went to this humongous ancient zoo too. and we got to touch all da animals. and there was a fly in my honey water. and that i was balding. LOLOL so nonsense. i wish glitz was compact...well sometimes. lol i like big dogs cos i can play with them however i want without worrying if im gonna hurt them..but at times like these i wish she could go back into her pokeball or something? lolol so it's easier for me to save her. and i'll just summon her again when there's no need for her to be compact. and i can bring her wherever i go too. sighhh...so not gonna happen. oh wells...im off to watch anime!

password please?

i've create two new labels Of Thy Yonder Dreams and The Black Beast of Faerie Moon..

da foremost are posts about my dreams and nightmares...and da latter is about my trials and tribulations on my journey to faerie moon....yea just an expression for my music and greater dreams...most of it would be password protected....i'll pass some of you guys da password soon...or if you can figure out da password that's great lolol..initially i wanted to name it la bête noir de fée de lune...which means da same but in french..but like too complicated lol..oh wells..im off to password protect my posts now...omg..i have a lot to do.

heaven sent waterfall..

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i had a horrible horrible dream! i dreamt that there was a tsunami warning and we all had to evacuate..and we werent allowed to bring any unnecessary stuff and that included glitz and karu!!!! da rescue ship was kinda strange though...it was a submarine type? but somehow it got flooded..and a bunch of sea turtles saved us. so cool right? there were thousands of sea turtles..and they were swimming all around us...some grabbed us by da shirts (with their mouths) and swam us to safety..some let us ride on their backs...lol so after da tsunami...we headed back home. and da scene that we arrived upon was so devastating. there were dead cats everywhere. and they were all dead black cats. so ominous. as we walked towards our house we saw more and more cats...but then we saw that our nearing apartment building was still standing..so it was a relief. da first floor was a little soaked but other than that no damage done. it's lucky that da building was on a high altitude area. so anne and i ran towards our apartment and it was perfectly fine! glitz and karu were still alive...wow! but they were mad at us and didnt wanna talk to us. LOL

i think this dream is a clear reflection of what i've seen in reality man. da flooded lounge..da tsunamis...da dead cat...recently i received an email about turtles too..humans stealing turtle eggs while they're washed up on shore..okay gotta goooooooooo~

im a dragonologist

da more i research da more confused i become. and i came across da strangest thing. lolol..did you know that pontianak is not a ghost but actually considered to be da malaysian vampire? the pontianak was a female vampire that sucked da blood of newborns, and sometimes young children and pregnant women. hahah researching such stuff at 2.30am is really bad for da heart..

anyway..every site on dragon mythology has diverse ideas and beliefs. and only this particular site speaks about yellow dragons being evil...the universe has been cursed by the ensouling forces, dragonsouls..through their own dissonant thoughtform, and  karma, curses and spells between the dragons themselves...it also reveals humans also have these ensoulments...dragonsouls manifested in humans through da generations...so i guess what this site is trying to say is this...ever wondered what you ever did do to deserve this? you may be a saint..you help da poor..you defend da weak you are even vegetarian...haha of course this is an exaggerated example...but somehow da shittiest shit still happens to you? so da origins of unjust karma is said to be da curses placed upon dragons on other dragons...and da discord and disharmony within their own souls...so lack of balance. haha so we are still fighting an age old war that does not belong to us. this actually sounds pretty cool..but i believe that humanity has brought upon karma on itself...no need these dragons' karma also. lol those who haven't received their well deserved karma..well beware. lol

• The Azure Dragon [Qinglong 青龍] spirits, most compassionate kings.
• The Vermillion Dragon [Zhulong 朱龍] spirits, kings that bestow blessings on lakes.
• The Yellow Dragon [Huanglong 黃龍] spirits, kings that favorably hear all petitions.
• The White Dragon [Bailong 白龍] spirits, virtuous and pure kings.
• The Black Dragon [Xuanlong 玄龍] spirits, kings dwelling in the depths of the mystic waters.

so in chinese mythology...da above are da classifications of da coloured dragons....yellow dragon here completely different and not evil...lol...ughh...so tired...in de end i still dont get my dreams and if there's any possible connection between anything.....lol....oh wells....

dreams of dragons

haha i dreamed about dragons again! 5 different dragons somemore..omigosh...im dead tired from an exciting night but at least my mental state is somewhat happy..lolol you know how sometimes when you'd wake up from a long night's rest but still feel soo tired and muscles are aching and all? i guess it's cos da you in dreams was running around and having fun. LOL sometimes i feel like i incur injuries from my dreams too..once i woke up feeling like someone punched me in da eye. hahaha oh oh..anyway my memory's kinda vague...ugh i hate it when i cant remember every single detail. yea but there was this hugeeeeeeeeee ass lake..and there were 5 sleeping dragons in it..and each dragon represented a different power. they were all of different colours too..there was a metal element one..that could turn into blades and slice stuff...and one that controlled water and could cause whirlpools and all....and i couldnt remember da rest......................stupid. anyway we needed to borrow da dragons' power..so we had to go into da lake and try to wake them...so we did and of course they were disturbed and angry cos like thousand years slumber and awoken by some idiot LOL so there was like a battle in da lake trying to calm them and get them to lend us their power...i was on da their backs being flung around like a doll LOL..yea but we managed to get them to aid us...so they would transform into orbs of their elements...and we had to absorb them into our bodies...yea...i cant really remember why we need their powers or what state da world was in...sigh..hopefully there'll be a continuation tonight. lolol

Meaning of Dragons in Dreams

This large, mystical creature may represent large and mystical forces inside of you. In the Far-East it is believed that the dragons are spiritual creatures that navigate through the air and through the sky. In the West, dragons are considered to be dangerous creatures that need to be destroyed. As far as dream symbols go, the dragon may represent the enormous power in your unconscious. It could symbolize repressed unconscious material, including fear. However, the dragon in our dreams is generally a positive symbol. It may represent a period of time when the dreamer will confront his fears and empower himself to effectively cope with negative emotions, extreme materialism, and be able to obtain greater inner and outer freedom.

Dragon Traditions of Myth in East & West

Dragons have a deeply rooted connotation in Western culture associating them with evil, whereas in Eastern stories they can also be kind and are considered very wise 

The Western Dragon Tradition

Western dragons aren't necessarily evil - but they often are. At the very least they tend to be solitary and bad-tempered.

The typical Western dragon - or Wyrm - is a large, scaly creature resembling a dinosaur or a large lizard. It usually has wings and can fly, often it will breathe fire.

Western dragons tend to live in caves in mountains or hidden away in the forests. They often guard a stash of gold. Western dragons are often used to symbolise greed.
Note: Caves symbolize the unconscious. In dreams a dragon in a cave would often symbolize unconscious fears, or a need to confront and slay unconscious fears.

Dragons vary as much as people do. Although many Western dragons are brutal, ignorant creatures who kill and eat humans others are ancient, wise creatures more akin to those found in the East. 
 

The Oriental Dragon Tradition

Whereas Western dragons are usually found in mountains or forests, Oriental dragons are more likely to be found in the sea. Many oriental dragons resemble water snakes.

Oriental dragons rarely breath fire, instead if a mortal annoys one then it is likely to result in great floods.
Note: When confronting the unconscious there is often a reluctance by the conscious mind to accept what is there. Often the conscious ego will throw annoying barriers so one will continue to repress or ignore unconscious contents.

The traditional Western dragon is often seen as a brutish creature to be feared. Oriental dragons tended to be wise and benevolent - as long as they were given the respect they deserved. Their chief flaw was their vanity and if insulted could cause dreadful natural disasters.

Oriental dragons fly to and from heaven in clouds but do not usually have wings. Some sources say that they gain wings after living for a thousand years. 

lololol sooooooooo awesomeeeeeee...i always dream of oriental dragons though..oh power. i am researching dragons right now and i found something...um interesting yet not too good? lol i am so bloody confused right now. i dreamed of a yellow dragon..he was da main one in da lake that i was trying to borrow power from..and it's da most harmful of all dragons. this site says that it's because of da dissonance  between dragon souls that has become humanities karma today...

Positive/Negative

Blue Dragon –   music, dance, arts  /   altruism, pretense, misrepresentation,  care-taking
Yellow Dragon – power,  control /   demoniacal, hunt, malice, torture
Red Dragon -  intellect, philosophy /  confuse, science, enmity, humiliation
Dark Green Dragon -  caution, balance / hunted, ritual, servility
Violet Dragon – wisdom, vision – Universal Truth and Service – no negative
Orange Dragon – friendship (therefore can be manipulated) / needy, slavery, discontent, revengeful
Green Dragon -  peace, humble / avoidance, misinterpretation, prostitution

it also says that we may have ancestors that have brought about curses of da dragons thus leading to da karma we may face today...or we may have part of da original dragon soul residing us...that causes us to face curses that other dragons cast upon us...im so confused. i dreamed of blue dragons da other day and they were my allies..and now i dream of myself asking a yellow dragon for help which was apparently cursed by da blue dragons because it has fallen to an ugly dark evil being...i really wanna read more but im bloody late for training....boo okay i'll read more and blog later..byebyeeeee

(ToT)

Scarlet skies behold a bitter moon

Heaven's fury's bound to come soon

Whilst you reap tears of the weeping willow

Milky twilight trail I must seek and follow

In wistful blue dreams I drown and wallow

Oh pray tell..how..what..I should do so

Where..Oh where is the green faerie's moon?

Where is the cow who jumped over the moon?

Wont you lead me afar to the faerie moon..

Wont you take me away to the faerie moon...

sent jon off today...practice didnt go well...guess was kinda emo and moody....and when i came back...i read one piece manga....omg....made me even more sad....major spoiler...im just gonna say a main chara died....i have to go for training early tomorrow...i really dont feel like it...=(

oh i had strange dreams again...lol...besides fatty...lol...i dreamed that i found a dead animal under my void deck....it was some squirrel skunk? im not sure...then i was like damn i have to bury another animal?...but while i was nudging it...it woke up..and transformed into some other unknown animal..it looked like an evil black fawn...and it kept jumping around following me..wanting to be pat...kinda cute..it had razor sharp teeth though...and even though it looked really fluffy..its fluff was hard as armor....hahaha...oh and i was at da ocean and a bunch of water dragons rose outta water...fucking awesome....lol...there was lightning in da background and everything..so dramatic...lol...somehow we needed da dragons' help for what i forgot....and da dragons had to come on land....but they didnt walk or slither...lol...they swam in the air...they're da wingless species...hahaha and i got to ride one..so fun!...alright..mata yume no jikan dayo...byeebyee

to be continued..

ugh so irritating..that was da max i could type via phone...anyway water seems to be a common theme in my dreams...feels really really good...'touch' wise lol..luckily i don't wet da bed LOL now if i could just minus da gore..i wanna dream of eating lol i seldom do..one bowl of tomyum beehoon please! Lol

Tomyam beehoon

i feel like eating sim's tomyum beehoon now..denise la! that was da last thing she said before she went to sleep lol omg 'm so tired and greedy..discovered my new craving too da fried tanghoon from lavender food square is to die for! lol da hokkien mee is so disgusting though damn how am i gonna sleep when my mind's full of food! sigh 'm so tired had an exhausting night full of dreams again..there was death and it was about glitz but i manage to turn da dream around and save her..i hate dreaming about glitz in such a way...makes losing her even more terrifying than it already is. as usual there were fights and wars ongoing and somehow me and glitz got caught up in it..glitz was pierced in da abdomen by several shards of glass..but she didn't care and kept on running around happily..i quickly rushed her to da hospital begging her to stop moving cos she was losing a lot of blood..yea she was rushed into surgery and meanwhile a doc told me that she would tend to my wounds and it was then that i realised that i was stabbed with shards of glass too..but i said it was okay just concentrate on glitz...and apparently i had some healing super power..lol so i was okay. da doc then told me it was too late she was gonna die all her internal organs were destroyed and she lost too much blood. omg..then she said if i was able to transfer some of my life energy to her I'd be able to save her..so i did and glitz lived! what a relief...i had like four dreams last night. and two of them had da most amount of water i had ever dreamed of. a underwater cave surrounded by oceans..a hogwarts like school invaded and flooded by water...i previously had avatar-esque like dreams where i wasn't human and was part of a water tribe species too..another one where my clan were slaves to an alien race and a water pipe was plunged through my abdomen while they were toying with us...that was in a luminous water ruins surrounded by forest kind of atmosphere...there was a water theme park with actual waterfalls and rivers one too...lol so fun!

wth...

god i've been emo all day...even people who heard me sing could tell...lol...kinda happens when you have images of bloodstained children and monster's horn piercing outta mom's body stuck in your head...amazingly..this isnt da worst...it's only bad because there are children in it....sigh...even now...when i think back about that nightmare...gives me da freaking creeps...even after i woke up i could still feel da cold clammy corpse in my arms....couldnt stop crying for a few days...everytime i thought about it....da loneliness and hopelessness lingered on for even longer....continued feeling da non existent corpse for days that came....sigh....i really need to rest...please dont let this be for 4th night....

ghastly dreams..

this is da 3rd consecutive night i've dreamt about death...it's been a while since i had such nightmares....they appear once in a while amidst my usual dreams but never consecutively...stupid..always so gruesome and gory...and my friends wonder why i cant watch gore..i have enough of it man...lol...i usually enjoy my nightly adventures..be it nightmare or dream...gives me such a rush of power and excitement that i cant get in reality....makes me feel...more...but these nights are taking a toll on me...i wake up feeling more tired than da day before...and da feeling of despair lingers on da entire day....haha..im already stressed out as it is because of stuff going on in real life....last night...there were children in my dream....there were never children...it was da first.....covered in blood and all....monsters or aliens were taking over people....and we finally tracked them down....only to realise that they were all just minions.....and da monster queen was residing in da children's mom.....she was gonna kill da kids....and we were forced to kill their mom in front of them.....managed to save da kids....only to realise that i was actually da kids older sis....and i was da one who killed my mom.....fucking terrific isnt it....i feel like shit...and i have to go for training now....byee...

impulse!

been doing lots of fun shit lately..i think im going fucking nuts..LOLOL i fucking time travelled..went to labrador to look for ghost dogs..stole my dad's car and took glitz and karu out for a spin..and i dont have a fucking licence. LOLOL damn im asking for it man. ooo i fucking teleported da car! WHEEEEEEEEEEE! i didnt tell my dad..he was like walking damn confidently to where his car was parked. and he was like OH SHIT where's my car?! lol..he didnt even ask man..just kept quiet..i think he might have been thinking that he's getting old..getting senile..wah i feel damn bad. LOL ugh keep going to my potm spot too. da view of da moon is fucking nice. all i'd need is a white tiger...lolol da only downside to all these shit was that i lost glitz collar..i got it customized in japan and i have a matching bracelet..her's has my name and mine has hers kinda shit. i left it on da car roof and fucking drove off. it costs 150 bucks la plus her super expensive leash that was connected to da collar. oh gosh..went back to look for it. but to no avail. not at lost and found either. sigh sigh sigh sighhh...oh i just came back from prawning too..lol first time eh. first prawn i ever had to work for. LOL damn evil though..i dont know why im only evil to prawns. they must have tortured me in my past life. LOL maybe i was plankton or something then they kept eating my family roflol..ugh god im going nuts..hey greatness...im glad you fucking found greatness...but i didnt...dont even know if i ever will..and it's slowly killing me inside...and im starting to question and doubt myself even more than ever....cos it seems like even my closest person never knew where i was coming from....im going back to my old ways... gonna self destruct...KABOOM KAPOW wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!.......going nuts is just a fucking symtom of what's more to come.

oh i had a fucking awesome dream last night. must have been cos i was high on liquor and medication lol been a while since i last had a dream this awesome. lolol da world was being taken over by some shit la. everyone was being consumed by darkness. and this darkness takes over their minds and can alter da person's physical appearance and what not. so it was like fucking dgrayman la. LOL all da unaffected ones would like put charms around themselves and pray to god or something hahaha wtf la. but it doesnt really work..cos everyone has a little darkness in them and it's very easy for it to take over. friends family everyone and anyone could get affected..so even within da 'protected' zones there were infecteds already..so they attacked from within la. at first..we could simply exorcise da darkness...yea we got magical exorcist powers too. LOL but as da darkness becomes stronger we had to kill da people. cos they were totally consumed already cant be saved. da only way to counter darkness was da purest of souls..but da number of such souls left were little so it was kinda a losing battle..i remember being forced to kill my friends and family...haha once again i would like to say that i dream in fucking colour...and again da most prominent colour was red...why is this always a common trait in my dreams? haha but damn exciting la. okay i should sleep..and maybe hopefully continue da dream..but oh wells..jaa!

what if i died and became a zombie?

i love doing otherworldly stuff! haha..i wonder if im really human sometimes...heh..my bio clock has been totally screwed up..i've been waking up around this time (it's 11.20 now..LOL) and sleeping in da morning..sometimes i wish i can sleep my life away...just live my dreams..literally speaking..lol...i dont care if they're nightmares...they are still more exciting than reality..though there are some dreams that i rather not have...

i dreamt of glitz dying again...haha..man..i cant remember much of da dream..all i know was that she was implanted with this alien lifeform...and this alien lifeform is damn cute...but it's like da devil incarnate or something..and i dont know how but it had a knife...and it sliced her up from da inside...starting from her eyeball...ughh....my dreams of glitz dying are always so full of gore...i read somewhere that dreams are supposed to be in black and white...but i dream in colour eh...haha...very dull though...like da zombie pictures below....and da most prominent colour is always da blood....

i used to write my dreams down....some because it's like some big adventure...some cos it's plain scary and i just needed to get it off my chest...some cos i felt a sense of belonging in them...i just dont wanna forget them...it's like another part of life that i have lived..despite being in dream realm...hahaha...have you ever dreamt so vividly that when you wake up...da effects of da dream still affects you? im not talking about some lovey dovey dream...when you wake up you feel happy kind of shit...your pounding heart..da way it clenches in fear...da way da tears continue to stream from your eyes...da invisible blood on your hands...da cold sweat...da cold clammy hand of your friend who just died....da lingering lifeless touch...that keeps haunting you...da helplessness...scary isnt it....but it creates such an adrenaline rush....

zombie fiera..

not zombiefied enough...should go rent costumes and get proper makeup..hahah when i have more money yeahhh....