holy shit!

holy shit man...byakuran's power freak freaking freaking rocks! wow wow wow WOW! da phalaenopsis paradox is awesome! gosh..to have to power to share all knowledge and experiences amongst all of his selves across a multitude of parallel worlds...this is like da epic power of all time la. but you know what would be even better? lol..da ability to transfer your consciousness to any and every single one of your selves in da parallel worlds..and not just in da same time line ya know. it's like right now a particular byakuran can only stay in that particular world he is living in...let's call him 25 year old byakuran no. 1..so he knows what's going on with 25 year old byakuran no. 2 and 3 and 4 and so on. but he's not experiencing it himself...if no. 1 could at anytime exchange lives with da 2nd or 6th or 99th or even 100000000000th..wow..lolol..it would be great if he wasnt restricted to a homogeneous point in time too..ughhhhhh always wanted some power that allows me to travel between alternate realities and realms. wheeeee i can be a ninja in one...maybe a rockstar in another...or a thousand year old vampire. LOL. what would happen if you overload you brain with memories of a million yous? or what if you had recollections of every single one of your past selves? hahahaa wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. do da possibilities even exist? people are blessed with powers for a reason i guess..usually for da greater good of mankind. ironically im gonna say that it's probably for da better that im not blessed with powers. though it does suck like hell. lol. ahhh...da endless possibilities of having such an omniscient power..sigh...
boy is life fucking ass boring.



byakuran-sama lol.

bored boreddd..boreddddd..............

im fucking boredd....bored bored bored...blablablahh..lalala....i guess i have loads of things to do...ahem like my assignment which is due tomorrow..lolol...but i'd rather procrastinate and be bored...hahaha...anyhows....i dont have anything in particular to say...so im just gonna blabber my boredom away....ahaha...i guess im not gonna sleep tonight....again...haven't been sleeping much..especially during da nights...and when day comes and im too freaking tired i just crash in bed...oh da dreams i've been having...lolol...da other night...fatnick got infected and tried to infect all of us yea....zombie infection yea...i think i've been playing too much l4d...hahaha...so we had to bring him to hogwarts to find a way to bring him back to normal...hahaha...anyway..when we got to hogwarts all hell broke loose..on top of voldemort reigning free we now have zombies too...lol...i cant remember what happened after that..and today i dreamt of fatnick again!!!! NICKKK STOP INVADING MY MINDDDDD!!!! lol oh wells...at least my dreams have been hell loads of fun...lol..i think i should stop playing l4d and convert to dota....hahaha ive had enough of zombies man...it's funny how i seem to always be tormented by zombies...edison ko and kyon i blame you guys for making me watch 28days! lolol...da worst was zombie glitz man...there was a zombie apocalypse...and glitz got infected too...all of a sudden she started attacking me and ripping me apart and all i did was cry..i didnt even defend myself..of course i wouldnt wanna harm my baby right...lolol...or so i thought....in da dream i stabbed her to death...fucking hell...hahaha goryyyy.....wheeeeeeeee...i think my baby hates me....yesterday night when i left da house she was howling again as usual...but her howls were kinda different......it sounded like she was sobbing....i went in again to comfort her before leaving....i know ive been neglecting her....sorry glitz...just give me some time yea.....fuck it...im just gonna rant....seriously please stop poking your noses into my personal life man....i know most of you guys are concerned...yes but please draw a line....i feel like i been dragged into this joyride and i cant get away from this fucking flow! if you're really concerned freaking stop gossipping and making it a fucking show...i hear da weirdest and oddest shit from da most random of people! and it's like oh wtf..oh is it..how come i da main person involved doesnt know shit!...you guys really love determining and making assumptions about what's going with me yea....it usually doesnt bother me...but it's where i freaking work and i can feel all your stares! not only that...stop freaking involving other people...just stop stop stop! stop spying and reporting man....and stop wondering if something is wrong just because im not smiling....must i hahaha and lalala all da fucking time...wheeee...yes because you only know da hahaha me....so i apologise for being emo alright.....thanks really for da concern..it's extremely touching...but this is no show...you guys are too blinded by your concern for only one person and dont see that you're hurting others too....in anyway...da show's over alright....so there's no need to spy anymore.

海～

Unwavering agony, begone, flee,
Flee as thou summons thee.
Disillusioned memories, forsaken soul,
Come back to me, redeem me.
Fantasies, desire love,
Break me from this sanity.
Welcomed nightmares, holding dreams,
Free me from reality,
Save me from reality.

Unfulfilled vengence, innocent masks,
Damn the mortal enshrouded in bloodlust.
Praying, hoping, lost in sin,
Drowning in a dream to be.
Prisoned, abyss of darkness,
Release me from thy relentless clutches.
Cursing, hiding, fearing fuck knows what,
Crucify thy shattered heart,
Crucify thy broken heart.

Cry,
Sweet damnation has comed.
Weep,
Foolish humanity's been judged.
Mourn,
Hellish wars consumed peace.
All,
For the unforgiven sin of one.
The punishment has begun.

Free me, kill me,
Save me from reality.

edited version...dont know if my usage of old english is correct....just came back from east coast...been a while....kinda nostalgic...had a fun popiah picnic...lol.....lots of stuff running through my mind right now....bahh...

暗くて、堪らない

just some crap i spewed out yesterday...a little different from how i usually write but whatever....

Coldy trapping, an endless darkness
Silently passing, time is ceaseless
Brightly shining, blindly waning
My glorious sun is breaking

Desperately seizing, I am mindless
Wretchedly aching, it is hopeless
Tightly holding, clearly losing
Your fickle rays arent reaching

Softly piercing, a familiar loneliness
Gently shrouding, comfort in nothingness
Secretly beckoning, really warming
The numbing cold is dissipating

Ever searching, I am soulless
Ever hurting, I am heartless
Hiding, crying, facades are shattering
Hoping, believing, in nothing I trust in

haha wow this is extremely obvious....まあ～いいか。

imma dead!!

it's 6.34pm and i just woke up..my freaking class is at 7 and not 730. not only am i gonna be fucking late but i haven't printed out any of my course materials at all. on top of that i realised i have an english assignment due next week. which i know shit about. im emo and tired and i just wanna laze in bed or play piano. soo..im just not gonna go..haha what a great conclusion. lol. on a happier note..my egyptian magic cream is here. LOL..im soooo anticipating da results! seriously one of da ingredients stated is divine love lolol cheesy names yet da 'magic' it excites..ever wondered how mummies were preserved? i guess that's why everyone is so hyped up about da cream..anyhows...im looking forward to silky smooth flawless skin...LOL

i dont need a broken sun..i'd rather da waning moon who would be there in my darkest hours..bleeding heart halt thy endless falters...jaded eyes cease your wretched tremors...tattered soul dont you ever shatter further....the kill is stuck in my fucking head...........

boy am i up earrly!

im having a fucking headache right now...wheeee! topsy turvy days bakkari...どうしてだろう。。分かんないんだよ！心が痛くて、堪らない。。誰か説明してくれない？今の状況がだい嫌い。お前ってさ、他人の話を聞かないでくれない？自分の心が何を言ってるんだ？始めには、私に大丈夫って言ったんだが、他人の話聞いて、もう大丈夫じゃなくなったんじゃん！何だよそりゃ！最初からもう問題いっぱい。お前と一緒にいる時、なんかもっと寂しくなりそう。お前の明るさは私の所へ届けないんだよ。みんなに愛されたのお前は、私の事何か分かる。話しても、分からない。分かっても、何にもできない。好きなタイプじゃないし、楽器を弾けないし、バカバカし。。。そう言っても、私が光を少しでも掴みたい。だから、ポリマン。。ごめん。やっぱりお前の事本当に好きになれるみたいだが、長い間を闇に溺死されるの私は、光に引かれててしまった。それなのに、お前を苦しませたくないんだよ。。。



haha look i what i found! a trucker cap that says 山獄! omg!! lolol epic cap of all time man!



my new panda cap..lol



my old panda cap..LOL..gosh i just saw da previous one and had to buy it..hahaha



da best buds nua-ing together...LOL



naughty karu hiding on da table...hahaha..



look at what happened to my room light last night..amazing..lol..



luckily it didnt hit glitz and karu..

I've got a gun in my hand but that gun won't cock
My finger's on the trigger but that trigger seems locked
and I can't stop staring at the tick tock clock
and even if I could I would never give up.
With a vest on my chest, a bullet in my lung
I can't believe I'm dying with my song unsung.
And if and when I die won't you bury me alone?
'Cause I'll never get to heaven if I'm singing this song.

If there was something wrong would you be oh so strong?
Would you do what it takes to move this hollow life along?
I'd like to think I would, you know I'd like to think I would
but I can guarantee that what you see is not reality
and every time she makes a point, I make a counterpoint
She said it's easy but in the end you'll have no choice
and you know that's only just the way it goes
You said it right man, That is just the way it goes

And the days, and the days they seem like forever
And the days, and the days they seem like forever
But forever isn't ever enough!!
I'd like to sing a song
Promise you won't be long!
I'll try not to be long but I don't want to get this story wrong
There was a kid who never cared about the little things
Don't even bother because I'm tired and I'm sick of it
And every time she makes a point, I'll make a counterpoint!
She said It's easy but in the end you'll have no choice
And you know that's only just the way it goes
You said it right man, that is just the way it goes

I've got a gun in my hand but that gun won't cock
And my finger's on the trigger but that trigger seems locked
and I can't stop staring at the tick tock clock
and even if I could I would never give up.
With a vest on my chest, a bullet in my lung
I can't believe I'm dying with my song unsung.
And if and when I die won't you bury me alone?
'Cause I'll never get to heaven if I'm singing this song.

Oh, You don't know where I've been!
Oh, You don't know what I've seen!

If I did something right
Would you give up this fight?
Would you say you were wrong and maybe someone else was kind of right
I'd like to think you would
You know I'd like to think you would
but I can't guarantee that what you get is an apology
Jump back to the day we met
I never thought that it would end this way
If ever I let you down I want to ask of you
To take it down a notch and we can talk it on through

And the days, and the days they seem like forever
And the days, and the days they seem like forever
But forever isn't ever enough!!
I'd like to sing a song
Promise you won't be long!
I'll try not to be long but I don't want to get this story wrong
There was a kid who never cared about the little things
Don't bother 'cause I still don't give a shit
And every time she makes a point, I'll make a counterpoint!
She said it's easy but in the end you'll have no choice
And you know that's only just the way it goes
You said it right man, that is just the way it goes

I've got a gun in my hand but that gun won't cock
And my finger's on the trigger but that trigger seems locked
and I can't stop staring at the tick tock clock
and even if I could I would never give up.
With a vest on my chest, a bullet in my lung
I can't believe I'm dying with my song unsung.
And if and when I die won't you bury me alone?
'Cause I'll never get to heaven if I'm singing this song.

Oh, You don't know where I've been!
Oh, You don't know what I've seen!

So tell me friend, how's it going to end?
When the shit goes down and there's no one left around to get your back
You'll crack
You'll smile and agree with everything they say
They'll try to tell you that it's all okay
But it's not and you're shot and you're bleeding pretty bad
And you can't stop thinking about the things you never had
Like a wife and a kid and the things you never did
You're running around
You're living a life that's empty in the end, my friend

No, You'll take back all you've said
Oh, When the regrets fill your head

Trust me I've been there before
I would not wish it upon my greatest enemy
What irony!
Once friends, but I find
You'll have to learn this lesson on your own

So I waited by the phone but that phone never rang
and I sang so loud so I wouldn't hear the bang
When the bang never came and I never got the call
Fuck It! Thank You! I Love You All!
Some are going to say that we're doomed to repeat
all our past mistakes
Great!
But that's not me
and even if it was I would always disagree
Because in the end I always get the better of me

I've got a gun in my hand but that gun won't cock
And my finger's on the trigger but that trigger seems locked
and I can't stop staring at the tick tock clock
and even if I could I would never give up.
With a vest on my chest, a bullet in my lung
I can't believe I'm dying with my song unsung.
And if and when I die won't you bury me alone?
'Cause I'll never get to heaven if I'm singing this song.

Oh, I'll take you where I've been!
Oh, I'll show you what I've seen!

amazing lyrics..counterpoint by streetlight manifesto..

wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf WTF WTF WTF WTF WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

kame kame kame

haha i finally uploaded da cosplay pics onto facebook...click here to view>> Day 1 & Day 2! hahaha i didnt post some pics on facebook though..LOL

it chopper time!



lol..i didnt wanna put on da blue nose at dte..lol



ureshikunaiwayo~!





strawhat crew!



Chopper and Zacc Potter!



shio bought me a new chopper hat! sankyuu!



neko mimi and usagi mimi on day 2!



kyaaa! gaara and itachi~~!!!

school's starting soon! ughhhh one more week....sigh...gonna have loads more assignments this sem...hopefully i will be able to juggle work and school....gonna be working a lot more next month too...haha though it's not really working...lol..more like playing...it's pretty time constricting....i cant wait to graduate...then again..when i grad....i'll be bugged to get a full time job....lol....damn...hopefully by then i'll be elsewhere....

私のことあまり分からないんだが、笑わせてくれてのお前は、私を救えるかも。もっともっとお前のこと好きになりたい。

ippai oppai..LOL

ahhh i've got lots of things to say! it's been really hectic..in a good fun way though..and school hasn't even started yet! we went for cosfest yesterday and da day before...been going out with new friends at wee hours of da day...hahaha...ever since i came back from penang it's been an uphill run...penang was so slack...all i did was freaking eat and sleep...LOL...and da moment i came back i had to start work...luckily i love my job! i just freaking play games..hahahaha..and da people there are fun....it just makes me reminisce about da time i spent with da night safari supper gang...i guess i really miss night safari a lot...going to supper....then to da marina arcade...listening to xjapan songs and singing while da car windows were down.....cereal prawn..LOL...stingray....ogling cute jap students....hahaha...uncle eng kiat....ah boon should be in japan now....i wonder how everyone is doing...da otters...da lazy tigers....da naughty chawang...auntie jenny...rachael....uncle lee....but it's okay...im glad im in a better place right now...despite having no japs to speak with...and no animals to look at....haha...at least here i know that da people actually value and respect each other....and wouldnt just off someone cos he's old....haha fuck yes im still sore about uncle engkiat....this ridiculous facade of a conservation effort....ugh...always only thinking about cutting costs and improving profits.....it's omnipotent i guess...i just wished it wasnt that prevalent...especially when it's supposed to be for a compassionate cause....hahaha..im never gonna survive in this stupid world....even worst if i have to enter da working industry....never gonna work for some MNC...never ever ever ever....dont even wanna think of holding a full time position....why is it so fucked up? hahaha...saaa...humans have da ability to be really kind...generous...compassionate..selfless....humble...yet...da temptations of worldly pleasures are too great to ignore.....humans are so so weak.....seriously it's because of this that's why people fall to da dark side.....humans who are tempted by something greater than worldly pleasures....da desire to destroy this world that we live in....da desire to self destruct because we dont wanna live in this world.....hahaha....im definitely one of them....so is shio.....and most of my close friends too.....shio's like permanently in da dark side....im fluctuating....cos i wanna believe in da good of this world....why else would we still be alive then if all that awaits us is doom?...which side are you on...and which side do you wanna be in....or are you too enshrouded in these worldly temptations and your puny circle to be aware? hahaha fuck...this is not supposed to be an emo post......i wanted to talk about cosfest....lol....im naruto....and there is a gaara....but we dont know each other.....but im glad there is someone out there who understands and feels da same way.....speaking of which...hahah i took a picture with itachi and gaara cosplayers yesterday....my two all time fav charas! met up with ash and bev too...ohisashiburi! oh and as usual i didnt cosplay again! hahaha..damn...i just wore my chopper hat on da first day...and neko mimi on sun...im kinda lazy to post da pics now....so i'll just post da link later when i upload it to sgcafe and facebook...lol....oh yeah i went jamming da other day! met kohji...jody and lionel at da colosseum...and they taught me L4D...lol...sucha coincidence that we all stay near each other...fans of A7X and Xjapan...and they were looking for a vocalist! jamming was so fun....and hilarious...will probably be jamming together again...haha...i tried olivia's wish...super high la...and totally no stamina...i thought my singing sucked....shio thought so too...but da guys said it was good....hahaha...sigh...not good enough though....haha okay i will upload da pics after they are edited! ja nya~

celestial...??

ただいま！！！！！随分遅くなってごめんね！マレーシアから帰ってもう一週間だったのに、まだ何にも言ってないね。新しい仕事できたばっかりから、最近ちょっと忙しかった。今の仕事めっちゃ楽しかったぜ！ゲームを遊んでだけで、一時間１０ドル～(>m<) そして、同僚はやさしくて、仕事中遊び過ぎて、毎日笑いいっぱい！面白い人もいるよ～harry potterを似てる人や、sotong paoだっての名前をつけられた人や、zombie見たいな人。。。いろいろなああ！連続３日かguitar heroesをやったんだ！プロになりて～～～～～～！ハハハ！楽しい～～～～じゃ、今はここで終わりにします、またね！