what if i died and became a zombie?

i love doing otherworldly stuff! haha..i wonder if im really human sometimes...heh..my bio clock has been totally screwed up..i've been waking up around this time (it's 11.20 now..LOL) and sleeping in da morning..sometimes i wish i can sleep my life away...just live my dreams..literally speaking..lol...i dont care if they're nightmares...they are still more exciting than reality..though there are some dreams that i rather not have...

i dreamt of glitz dying again...haha..man..i cant remember much of da dream..all i know was that she was implanted with this alien lifeform...and this alien lifeform is damn cute...but it's like da devil incarnate or something..and i dont know how but it had a knife...and it sliced her up from da inside...starting from her eyeball...ughh....my dreams of glitz dying are always so full of gore...i read somewhere that dreams are supposed to be in black and white...but i dream in colour eh...haha...very dull though...like da zombie pictures below....and da most prominent colour is always da blood....

i used to write my dreams down....some because it's like some big adventure...some cos it's plain scary and i just needed to get it off my chest...some cos i felt a sense of belonging in them...i just dont wanna forget them...it's like another part of life that i have lived..despite being in dream realm...hahaha...have you ever dreamt so vividly that when you wake up...da effects of da dream still affects you? im not talking about some lovey dovey dream...when you wake up you feel happy kind of shit...your pounding heart..da way it clenches in fear...da way da tears continue to stream from your eyes...da invisible blood on your hands...da cold sweat...da cold clammy hand of your friend who just died....da lingering lifeless touch...that keeps haunting you...da helplessness...scary isnt it....but it creates such an adrenaline rush....

zombie fiera..

not zombiefied enough...should go rent costumes and get proper makeup..hahah when i have more money yeahhh....

kero kero kaeru

hie all...im thinking of reconstructing da blog again...heh...maybe not too much on da designs and stuff but rather da way that i blog? yeahh...initially i started this blog to 'advertise' my web series (AOF)...and like photos and stuff...but i think by doing it this way im putting way too much thought into what i blog about...so i wanna make it more personal....

i feel that it would be tons better than blogging like some hyperactive 5 year old..and next a dying old lady...hahahaha...for those who know me i guess i am kinda like that...downright weird and random..haha..im like two extremes...everything i do and like can be totally opposite...like rock and classical...believing and yet not believing...carefree yet burdened..fel and fiera...maybe there wont be much changes after all...haha...but no more being hypocritical and superficial from now on...i dont want my blog to be so commercialized just because i wanna promote my aof or whatever....haha yep yep..new year dane....

when's da next AOF? hahaha hmm mmm mmm.....shio and i are going overseas during chinese new year...so it's gonna be after that i guess?? hahaha...damn..we'll be missing soy....

so many things i have to do yeahh...i have to find a new job....my school's starting soon...hahaha i need to get my brain back in action...it's been a long time since i used it..lol...used to be able to write relatively well..and now i think im just full of shit...hahaha...and im majoring in literature...im sooooooooo dead....hahaha..but still kinda excited....it's been a long time since i had inspiration to compose anything...da song i wrote for uncle ek being da first after 2 years....not good enough though...it's kinda like a ballad...but i got stuck halfway and i dont know how to continue it.....oh well..some people take years to complete a song...heh i wanna be proficient enough in jap to write poetry and stuff....my sensei said it would take at least 10 years...LOL...

honestly i dont really wanna find another job..i wanna concentrate on my music and complete my jap and start french...but it's so ex...bahhhh....okayyy..that's all for now...ja nyaa...lol..

ichiban~~~

HAPPY NEW YEARR!

hieeee~ da very first post of 2009! i guess there are tons to look forward to..but to some of us..ahem..me..LOL..and yeah a few others..i just means another year has passed...with no changes...well i wouldnt say no changes..but life still remains pretty stagnant....let's reminisce shall we...hahaha..

highlights of 2008

joining da F1 competition...decided to come out of my hermit hole...and become sociable again in hopes of getting more opportunities to attain my dream...made new friends..but in return...became more jaded...didnt want to return to da kind of social lifestyle i had in da past...so many 'friends'...in de end..there were no opportunities...even for da winner...da whole comp was just a faux to gain attention for da event...one minute of fame i would say....

was introduced to da cosplay scene...haha most interesting thing of da year...makes me look forward to every event that comes....

started Adventures of FIERA....kinda fun...but tiring to edit videos...haha...something that i can call my own...

karu came into our lives....cutest thing...

ignored edison...and started talking to him again....haha...

i got to know ruki...hahaha...

singing and piano playing improved.....but still not good enough...

...uncle ek passed away...

became more jaded...

becoming despondent...haha...

last disappointment of da year....participated in avex world audition and did not make it.....not even through da first round.....

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resolutions for 2009

by march latest...master hibari's theme song....

i must make it by this year....

learn another language..probably french...

become thinner...(shuddup all of you)...

become closer to da me i know i can be....

get out of this place...with glitz..shio and karu....

improve at da piano...and singing...

meet some mythical and magical creatures...haha..

i hope this list will change next year....

more vids and feru's rubbish..

hieee more vidsss...here's walter's and da code geass team's uncut interviews...i think im not gonna use sony vegas anymore...i'd probably try adobe premier..depending on what media fxs..da quality of da vid is really not very good..rendering takes damn long too...oh wellsss...








hahaha...i like this pic...can you tell that my middle finger was mosaic-ed? lol..taken by ANNE DARKEN during da same shoot..hahaha...you know we never intended for da shots to look so vampire-ish..dont know why ended up like that...hahahaha...speaking of which...

i dont understand da sudden hype with twilight man...firstly..i think they made vampires look lame...when he was showing his 'true' self in da sun..i thought he was gonna transform into some monstrous beast or something...but wth..he's shiny? big deal...sucha cheesy romance flick man..not enough action..not hot enough....CANNOT BEAT UNDERWORLDDDD...or Van Hellsing...i didnt even find it romantic...i felt that da leads were awkward...not enough chemistry...full of awkward conversations...people only like it because edward was hot...tsk..do you know that he was CEDRIC DIGGORY from harry potter??? hahaha..bahhhss...

kurisumasuuuuu

guess how i spent christmas? lol...

i ate steamboat..again..

i waited for da vids to render..and upload...zzz

while waiting...my friends and i multiplayed on ds...final fantasy crystal chronicles...LOL..till 6am...

oh look da vids are NOT done...so i went to sleep...

woke up around 4...vids still not done....

played ds...tried to faster level up before i play with my friends again...hahahaha

to no avail..cos they all also played to level up...wahahah...

they came over around 8...to ds of course...hahahah...and we completed da game! hahaha

in summary...i spent christmas this year..waiting for vids..and playing ds...hahaha!

i think glitz is boreddd....

フェルフェルのCosplay Interview!

FINALLY!! UGH..my lappie needs to rest man...it's been on for 3 days straight! rendering da stupid vid..uploading on youtube..and still so many screw ups and glitches...but now..THANK YOU VEOH..i only took 2 hrs to upload a 430mb on veoh! youtube doesnt even have a status bar! so you just wait and wait and freaking ass wait...and dont even know when it's gonna finish!

i didnt include everyone in da vid cos i thought i was just gonna upload a 10 min vid on youtube...da uncuts will be out soon!

there are still some minor glitches..and da quality still isnt that good..but overall it's okay!

DOUZOOOOOOOOO!!!

HO HO HO

Merry Christmas!

I VANT TO SUCK YOUR BLOOD...

kufufufufu....it's da night of a full moon and vampires have come out to play.....

Vampire FIERA



ughhh too weak.....need to feed.....



i need blood....blood...BLOOD..! there you are...my prey....

ahhhh...my powers have been restored....i must leave this dreadful place...dawn is breaking...

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weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee hiee! i haven't slept yet and im going lalala....im still waiting for da cosplay interview to render...me and shio stayed up all night doing it...seriously..da rendering sucks like shit.....it always has some minor or sometimes even major glitches..which are not even our fault! we freaking checked that everything is perfect..and then when it finishes rendering after 2 freaking hours..there are glitches!!!! why why why!?!?!?!? this is my 3rd time rendering da video....pleaseeeeeeee let it be okay!!!

a few of my friends are coming over later...and i have yet to prepare da food or what....ahhhhhh...
dieeee....hahaha...anyway i went for a shoot da other day....Photography courtesy of VINCENT ENG....hahahaha i think it was freaking ass cool da way da photos turned out! hahahah..like i just popped out from da twilight movie..LOL i look like snow white...ahaha i wish my skin was this white...but abit freaky..hahaha..

yeahhh and here's a glow picture....hahaha i only found one with me in it...LOL..and edi's at da right hand corner...look at da guy in da middle..his name is jovan...his expression is epic man hahaha you know da guys were being damn idiotic..hahaha cos it was a 'glow' event right..da place was really dark..and glow sticks everywhere...so one of them started to put da glow sticks in his pants...in front of his CROTCH....FORMING AN X.....seriously..wtf! hahahaha they even colour coded it so they would know who was who....zzz!





bestt....LOL

Vongola Festival!!!!

家庭教師ヒットマン
REBORN! DS
マフィア大集合
ボンゴレフェスティバル!!

this game is uber fun. i completed it a few days back..it's a brainless type of game..and it's so cute and funny!

Tsuna VS Black Spell Tazaru

Challenge: Skipping (LOL)

Tsuna VS Byakuran

Challenge: Eating

Training dayo!

Challenge: Open da doors and avoid lasers. Lasers would cause Gola Mosca to be activated.

hahaha i purposely made gokudera win...really! LOL

Hyper Tsuna Vs Byakuran

Challenge: Battle!

Versus da Boar person..UM..i forget his name LOL

Challenge: Avoid his lightning beam..Ryouhei Tsuna and Gokudera..

My poor hayato! lolol..

there're like many more mini challenges...kokuyo games..bianchi's and fuuta's casino...LOL..bahhhhh